The Project That Built Me 136.2

A hand grips the nail—
Not just to hold it,
But to anchor something deeper.


The House with the Stubborn Door (Barcelona, 1997)

The apartment was old, sun-warmed, and full of echoes. The door stuck in the summer, swelled with the heat, refused to open without a fight. He had moved in without thinking—because it was cheap, and cheap was good.

But the place needed work.

The kind of work that layered itself in dust, seeped into the corners, whispered from the chipped tiles and the peeling paint. A sink that gurgled at odd hours. Windows that rattled in the wind, uncertain of their place. Walls that carried the quiet burdens of people who had been there before.

For a long time, he thought of it as temporary. A place to pass through. A stopgap between what was and what could be.

Until one evening, wrestling with the door yet again, he decided something.

He would make it his.


The Rebuilding of Things and People (Hanoi, 2008)

He started with the walls.

Stripped back the layers of color, watching decades unfurl in flecks of paint. Beneath it, he found old pencil marks—children’s height records, small names written in careful script. Someone’s past, left behind.

Then the floor.

Tiles worn smooth by years of footsteps. He pried them up one by one, each revealing the bare bones of the space beneath. The new tiles fit awkwardly at first, their edges unfamiliar against the history they covered. But, in time, they settled.

The pipes were next. Rusted, reluctant, tangled in ways they shouldn’t be. He could have hired someone. Should have, maybe. But this was about more than just repairs.

This was about proving something.

That he could build. That he could fix. That he could take something broken and make it better.

And maybe—just maybe—that meant he could do the same for himself.


Wabi-Sabi and the Beauty of Imperfect Work (Istanbul, 2022)

Wabi-sabi teaches that nothing is ever truly finished.

A house is never fully built—only maintained.
A heart is never fully healed—only mended.
A person is never fully complete—only growing.

The windows still rattled, sometimes. The door still needed a hard push.

But the space had changed.

And so had he.


Lessons from a Room Rebuilt by Hand

  • You are capable of more than you think.
  • Imperfection is not failure—it is proof of effort.
  • Things take time. So do people.
  • There is something sacred about building with your own hands.
  • The work is never truly done. And that’s the point.

The Door That Stuck, the Room That Stayed, the Person Who Remained

One evening, he stood by the window.

The streetlights flickered, casting long shadows over the city. The world outside had not changed, but somehow, it felt different.

For the first time in a long time, so did he.

The door still stuck in the summer.

But he no longer minded.

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