cracked teacup waits—
same table, same quiet hum,
new thoughts in old air
In the spring of 2019, I was living in a small guesthouse in Kurume, a town most people pass through without noticing. The owner was a retired teacher who brewed barley tea like it was a kind of slow ceremony. My room faced a narrow alley where cats lived like landlords and the laundry above me swayed like flags that had forgotten which country they belonged to.
I was working on a project then—a strange one. Half fiction, half tool, all built from vague conviction and late-night second guesses. I’d spend most mornings alone at my laptop, buried in drafts and diagrams, surrounded by silence so heavy it felt like a material. I didn’t mind. That was the point. I’d come to Kurume to get lost in my own work.
But every afternoon, around 2:15, I would close the lid, stretch my legs, and walk ten minutes down the street to a restaurant with no sign.
The Place That Didn’t Need To Be New
It was the kind of place you wouldn’t notice if you didn’t already know it.
Three tables.
One cook.
One old woman with hands like carved wood who took orders without writing them down.
The restaurant served only one dish, really—
a simple soba set with warm broth, crisp tempura, and pickles that always tasted slightly different depending on who had prepared them that week.
And I loved it.
Not because it was extraordinary, but because it was unchanged.
Every day, I’d sit at the same table near the window.
Every day, the tea was poured before I asked.
Every day, the food arrived exactly as it did the day before.
And yet, every day, it tasted new—because I was different.
Where the Work Lived
Back at the guesthouse, I worked in total isolation.
No meetings. No feedback. No feedback loops.
Just me and the quiet rhythm of thought.
And it was in that quiet that the real work formed.
Not the reactive kind—built from calls and shared docs and status updates—
but the deep kind.
The kind that comes from letting your own thoughts ferment for hours
before you say them out loud.
Solitude taught me things feedback never could:
how to listen longer,
how to follow a thread past the obvious,
how to sit with confusion without killing it too early.
But Then—Every Thursday
Every Thursday evening, I’d take the train to Fukuoka to meet my collaborator.
We didn’t call it that—“collaborator.”
We just said we were meeting for coffee,
but both of us knew we were there to test ideas.
We’d sit in a noisy kissaten near Tenjin Station, where the lights were too warm and the chairs too low.
And suddenly, the thing I had been shaping alone in silence
had to make sense out loud.
I’d say something I thought was fully formed,
and he’d tilt his head,
ask a question I hadn’t considered,
and suddenly the whole shape of the idea changed—
not broken,
just sharpened.
Softened at the edges where I hadn’t known I was bluffing.
Those conversations were rarely long.
But they did something the solitude never could:
they tested my honesty.
They made sure I wasn’t just building a perfect world in my own head.
The Soba Was Always the Same—But I Wasn’t
I returned to the restaurant every day after those meetings.
Sometimes to celebrate.
Sometimes to sulk.
Sometimes to just not think for an hour.
And the food?
It never changed.
But it always felt different.
Like the dish was reflecting something in me—
my progress,
my doubt,
my tiredness,
my small victories.
That’s the strange thing about routines.
The world doesn’t need to shift for us to move forward.
Sometimes it’s us who change against the stillness.
Work Alone, Share Together
There’s a reason the best work often begins in silence.
Because it’s there you ask the hard questions:
Do I actually believe in this?
Does this idea hold, even when no one is clapping?
But the work can’t end there.
It has to be spoken.
Held up to someone else’s eyes.
Let out into air that doesn’t belong to you.
Solitude is for digging deep.
Collaboration is for seeing clearly.
Both are required.
But never at the same time.
Wabi-Sabi, in a Bowl of Soba
There is wabi-sabi in that little restaurant.
In the unchanged menu.
In the chipped bowls.
In the way the woman never asked for praise,
only nodded when I said ごちそうさまでした.
It taught me:
- Routines don’t kill creativity. They protect it.
- Solitude deepens ideas. Collaboration gives them air.
- The same experience, repeated with awareness, becomes a form of practice.
- Your surroundings don’t need to change for you to grow. You change anyway.
Now, whenever I start something new—
a story, a tool, a risk—
I return to that rhythm.
I begin in silence.
I build without noise.
And then, when I’m ready—
I find someone I trust.
We meet in person.
We talk.
We tilt our heads.
And if I’m lucky,
I find a little restaurant afterward.
Something small.
Something unchanged.
Where the tea is poured before I ask.
And where the quiet, again, begins to do its work.
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