In the winter of 2017, I stayed for a week in a small apartment above a used bookstore in Shimokitazawa. The kind of place where time collects in the corners, and the lampshades give off a light so soft it feels more like memory than electricity.
The owner of the shop was a man named Aki. Late fifties, maybe early sixties. He never said. Wore two watches but never checked either of them. I asked him once why.
“One’s for the time here,” he said. “The other’s for the time I wish it was.”
Then he smiled, like he knew how strange that sounded but had already made peace with it.
Each morning, he’d open the shop at ten, put on a jazz record no one else could name, and brew coffee that tasted slightly of regret—bitter, but warming in the right kind of way. I liked watching him from the mezzanine above, where I’d sit with a book I didn’t intend to finish and pretend I wasn’t listening to the music.
On the third morning, it happened.
He was sketching something in a thick notebook by the register—shapes that didn’t make sense, loops and half-written kanji, a pattern only he understood—when he accidentally knocked over his coffee. It fell with a soft clatter, the kind that doesn’t interrupt the jazz but suddenly becomes part of it.
The liquid spread quickly.
A dark, quiet ruin.
Over the counter, across the pages.
It soaked half the book before he even moved.
But here’s what struck me—
he didn’t flinch.
Didn’t curse or scramble for towels.
He just sat there, watching the stain grow.
And then, very slowly, he tore out the wet page, folded it once down the middle, and placed it to the side.
Then, with the same pen he’d been using, he turned to the next blank page and began again.
—
I asked him about it later.
If he was frustrated.
If the sketch had meant something.
He shrugged. “It did,” he said. “But maybe this one will mean more.”
Then he poured us both a new cup of coffee and added,
“Most people think the day is ruined when something spills.
But sometimes, that’s when it really begins.”
—
I think about that moment more than I care to admit.
How calm he was.
How certain.
It wasn’t about the mess.
It was about what he allowed it to become.
We’re so trained to brace for what might go wrong.
To predict the detour.
To armor ourselves with worst-case scenarios.
But Aki taught me that ruin isn’t always failure.
Sometimes it’s invitation.
A strange, sloshing kind of grace that breaks what was never quite working
so you can start the next page cleaner than you thought you could.
What I Learned from a Coffee-Stained Page
- The world doesn’t end when your plan dissolves. Sometimes it begins there.
- The things we try to salvage might not be worth saving. But the space they leave behind often is.
- Spilled coffee, a missed train, a closed door—they’re not just obstacles. They’re quiet directions.
- What goes wrong isn’t always wrong. It’s just different. And sometimes, that difference leads to something you wouldn’t have dared draw on your own.
—
I never saw what he sketched on the new page.
But I think that’s the point.
It wasn’t about the drawing.
It was about still drawing.
About not letting the spill stop the hand.
About trusting the next page
even when the last one drowned.
And I think, maybe,
that’s what Yhprum’s Law really is—
not a promise that everything will go right,
but a quiet faith that even when it doesn’t,
you still will.